More Than Existing: Removing the Fear of Living With Bipolar Disorder
Mental health awareness is a widely explored topic, however prior to the pandemic, being open about the struggles you were experiencing mentally was not fully embraced. “About 2.5% of the U.S. population suffers from some form of bipolar disorder - nearly 6 million people.” The stigmas surrounding mental health can play a huge role in one’s decision to walk in fear.
My name is Shanice. In 2006, I was diagnosed with bipolar type two. Like most Black women, I shrugged off the diagnosis and went on with my life. For years, I played the role of the big sister, strong friend and successful auntie while ignoring the mood swings and the other neurodivergent signs that I was experiencing. What I did not know was that my “superhero” complex was simply a version of high-functioning bipolar disorder.
The universe has a way of forcing you to step back to face the aspects of our lives that we tend to run from. For me, that moment happened in 2014 with the passing of my father, followed by the passing of my sister seven months later. Both events put me in a place where I could no longer ignore the battle between my mind and heart. My diagnosis became more evident, only no one in my life knew about my journey. I only emerged to go to work, and I played the biggest acting role I would ever land, the role of happiness.
By the time the pandemic came around, I was a master at staying in, keeping to myself and not engaging with the world.
They say that the universe will continue to throw obstacles in your way until the lesson at hand has been learned. In 2021, I went on a journey to find the root of my unhappiness. I was forced to face my childhood trauma, insecurities and diagnosis head on. I could no longer allow the fear of the unknown to control the way I moved in life, and it was time for me to share my story with those who were a part of my ecosystem.
As the work was being done, bright lights began to shine in all aspects of my life. After eight years of being single, I was now in a thriving committed relationship. My business endeavors began to flourish even more, and I found my tribe.
Today, I stand in my truth.
In November 2022, I closed on my first home. In January of this year, I accepted my new role as VP of Learning Innovation at a fortune 500 banking institution. I celebrated my second-year anniversary last month. Between my spiritual journey and medication, I am enjoying everyday of my life. I have a tribe of sisters who hold me accountable and I run three very successful businesses that are dedicated to the enhancement of Black women and members of the LGBTQIA communities around the world.
Shanice Love is an entrepreneur with businesses in the entertainment, financial and trucking industries. Shanice, focuses her time on creating avenues that help elevate black women in their personal and professional lives.